I’ve been sitting in front of my laptop since I woke up in the morning, today, and it’s like, almost 10:30 PM as I am writing this. It is honestly embarrassing how many edits I’ve had to make to a project that I was satisfied with until yesterday. But this morning, when I was doing the final proofreading, I realized that I wasn’t actually happy with the entire thing. So I did what any sane person would and I spent yet another day reading through every single line and making more edits. Maybe I am happy with it now. But that could just be my exhausted brain talking.
I am not actually exhausted, though. I didn’t even realize what the time was until I just looked. Maybe time goes by faster when you immerse yourself into doing what you love the most. I am just surprised how much time this took because I don’t even think it took me this long when I was initially working on the project. Now that I am going through it, I find that there are more things that need finesse and I don’t really mind working on making it better because this is something that means a lot to me.
We’ll see how it is tomorrow morning before I decide to go ahead and finalize it!
The thing is, when we decide that we want to do something the right way, we cannot help but nitpick every little detail until we are satisfied with the entire thing. It could take forever but that is the price you pay, sometimes, for doing what you love the most. You want all of your efforts to be worth it, and you decide that you might as well give it your all.
But I am telling you this from my personal experience, do not let anything take over you to the point where you let yourself go completely and forget about your own well-being. Yes, working hard is important, but so is taking care of yourself through the entire process. I wish we were told that more often. I wish the emphasis was on doing your best but not letting it consume you, instead of simply just ‘doing your best‘. You need to let yourself take a break in between what you’re doing to make sure that you actually do it all well.
There is no point to working really well on something important in the initial stages and then fizzling out but still trying to half-ass the whole thing in the later stages. That would just dampen all of your hard work, anyway. Don’t you think it is better to work on things with a clear head, instead?
That being said, I couldn’t be happier with all the work that I got done today. I just wish I didn’t end so many of my days with a headache, lately. I’m trying to look after myself better, too, along with doing my best with the project I’ve been working on.
I hope you all don’t forget about your well-being while trying to give something your best.
You matter too! You matter. Xx