I don’t know what is going on, but I feel like things have been turning out pretty bad one after the another, lately. I am trying my very best to hold onto doing what I love. But it has been very emotionally taxing, recently, and I am simply unable to bring myself to do the simplest tasks because it has been taking a huge toll on me. I don’t like how things are currently going and I wish they were better sometimes because there is so much that needs to be done and I think that I should try to fix it before it gets any worse.
But here’s the thing: when several things are falling apart all at once, and all of them are incredibly important to us, we don’t know where to begin! It’s probably one of the most difficult decisions that any of us will ever have to make and I am not sure if I am up for that task.
It has been a lot to handle, frankly, and sometimes I just wonder if the best course of action to take here would be to escape to a place that virtually doesn’t exist and simply allow myself to disappear from existence.
I am trying, though.
I have been trying to fix things, one at a time, a piece at a time. But it still doesn’t feel like I am doing enough. Maybe there is more that I can do, but I dn’t have the energy for it right now and everything feels like it’s going to slip away through my hands when I am looking the other way. Obviously, I do not want that to happen.
So, I am doing my very best to try and fix things as much as I possibly can. And not doing a very great job at the moment. But I am trying and I hope it will get me somewhere.
At least I still haven’t lost hope, after everything. Xx