Dumpster Fire.

You know that feeling when you think things are finally going uphill for you and you decide that taking a rest for sometime might be a good option. But then you make the mistake of actually looking around yourself and you realize that life is an even bigger and raging dumpster fire than it was before. Something like that is going on with me right now and I am way over in my head trying to solve everything because these are things that are important to me.

It’s extremely disappointing, really, to think that so much hard work went into something that isn’t even showing any sort of results.

Then again, I have always been told that success doesn’t come easy, ever, and it’s probably one of the most problematic things that I have internalized while growing up. Because success does come easy if you’re privileged enough, and I am not. It is honestly a bitter reminder that I have to claw my way up to the top even if my knuckles are bruised and bloody, and I don’t think this is the kind of hustle culture that we should be promoting amongst young and impressionable people.

It’s so messed up because people think that they can make it overnight, but there is an insane amount of luck and timing in play there. It’s not always easy to achieve the things we want but it isn’t as impossible as everyone makes us think. The only difference is that we might end up severely undermining ourselves.

This needs to change and not a lot of us realize that because we’re too busy wondering why things are always going wrong for us. I don’t think that’s the way it’s supposed to work. We are supposed to take pride in what we love doing because it takes a lot of courage to pursue something we are actually interested in. But the world always has a lot of things to say about that.

But how can anyone ever make sense of something that doesn’t mean as personally to them as it does to us?

What we don’t realize is that this is often just a dumpster fire of our own making. If only we had been taught to take a lot more pride in what we do than we currently are, we would have been in a very different place.

We need to understand that having a supportive environment is also a kind of privilege that a lot of people don’t have. If we have a supportive environment to grow in, we must take pride in it and understand that we are at full liberty to use that to our advantage, as well as to help people whose voices aren’t as loud as ours.

Maybe, someday, we will put out this dumpster fire and create a more supportive world for people who don’t have the same advantages as we do. Someday, we will learn that we are deserving of a lot more praise than we are currently given.

Someday. Xx

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