I am finally back home after two whole weeks of irregular sleep schedules, early mornings, quick costume changes, and long hours of attending wedding ceremonies and festivities. I cannot wait to get back to actually writing something good. It has been such a long time since I have allowed myself to take a break this long. I think I put off things enough for them to snowball into something I have absolutely no control over.
But I think that this break from writing has been pretty productive for me because I now have a whole bunch of ideas that I want to get started on as soon as possible. I don’t know how soon I can catch up with all the work that I haven’t gotten around to doing in the weeks that I have been away, but I am trying to get back to the grind as soon as I have my head together.
The thing is, I don’t know how to keep it together right now because I am finally beginning to accept that I don’t have to force things to work in my favour. Whatever happens will happen. And if I work smarter, I can help the odds to work in my favour. If not, maybe it just means that I need to take a break and work harder later.
Either way, burning myself out isn’t going to help.
It never does. All it ever does is make us cranky and disoriented when we need to be at our most collected. My Mom keeps telling me that I need to let things happen in their own time because she has been noticing how disoriented I have been lately. It has been so comforting to hear from her that I should let things happen naturally for the time being because things haven’t been working out quite well for me lately.
I think it’s going to take me a while to get back to working at the same pace that I once used to, but I am working towards it. I think all of us are doing our best, and that’s all anyone can ever hope for.
We’ll get there eventually. Xx