‘What Could’ve Been…’

“It’s such a weird feeling when you find out that somebody that you know today used to be a complete stranger to you years ago. It’s even weirder when you think about how you could have been friends with them if you had just branched out a little more. Call it the immediate outer circle or whatever, I don’t really have a word for it. But when a friend of mine told me that she would have liked to be friends with me years ago when we still ran in and out of pretty much the same circles, it just struck me how we all choose to live in our own bubbles sometimes. My friend was surprised to find out that we went to the same college and that we had a lot of mutual friends as well. How we found our way into being friends with each other now, I’ll never know. But what I do know is that I now believe in people finding their way to each other, in spite of the circumstances, a lot more than I ever did. If I didn’t believe in the fact that all of our lives were somehow tied together before, I do now. It probably sounds like such a stupid thing to believe in, but it’s just one of those things that we’ll probably never find the answers to, I guess. I keep wondering how things would be right now if I had made different choices back then, and honestly? I don’t see a point to it. I can’t think about what is gone because what I have right now is so much better in so many ways. Thinking about what could have been isn’t going to bring it back. Maybe things could have gone in a different direction back then. But when I think about it, I realize that the person I am right now is so much better at maintaining friendships than the person I used to be a couple of years ago. Sure, things might have been different and I definitely missed out on a couple of things, maybe even more. But now that I know I have another chance at doing things differently, I know I’m going to make sure that I do it properly. I’m no longer worried about the things that could have been. I only want to focus on what could be.”

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