It has been a day and I did start writing something good today, but I don’t think I am in the right headspace for it at the moment, so I will not be working on it. Maybe I will finish writing the poem tomorrow, when I am in a better place, emotionally. But right now, I am very exhausted and the only thing I want to do for the day is to eat a whole bunch of snacks and watch something corny to make myself feel a little better.
Of course, I learned today, that a few of my friends are also feeling this sense of impending doom or whatever, and I am going to take a guess and say that it has been a really long week for everyone out there, for whatever reason, so try not to blame yourself too much over it. Bad days strike at the most unlikeliest of times and there’s not really a lot that we can do about it because we may not always have the energy to do so.
There is so much going on right now and things keep getting unpredictable by the day. You can’t try to control every single thing in your life. No matter how good you are at multi-tasking, you cannot put yourself through a certain limit and that is something that I wish we were told more often growing up.
Sometimes, you just want to watch bad TV and stay curled up on the couch like a cat because you’re just not ready to do the whole life thing and I cannot stress how comforting a hug feels on those days. It feels like a reminder that it is okay to have bad days sometimes because trying too hard can get too much on some days and that is just a lot more than we can handle. Things are a lot bigger than us on some days and we just need to stop putting on a brave face all the time.
We keep doubting ourselves, wondering if we’ll ever be good enough to achieve what we want in life, but we never think about everything that comes with it. We are good enough and we’re doing our best, but sometimes, doing our best just doesn’t cut it because it is a cut-throat world that we live in; on some days, we barely make it out alive. We should definitely give ourselves more credit for that.
And you, if you’ve been having a bad time lately, I hope things get better for you soon. And I hope you don’t give yourself a hard time over this because, chances are, this was never your fault in the first place. True, we can’t always go around telling ourselves that it is okay to take to the couch and stay there until we feel better, but sometimes, we could be working our hardest and still seeing the road lead to nowhere. Now, that can’t be your fault, can it?
Of course, we need to pick ourselves up and keep going because that’s what we’re supposed to do. But when you’ve suffered an onslaught of bad days, I think it’s okay to just go easy on yourself and show yourself some kindness.
I hope you’re well. Xx