I’ve been sitting in front of my laptop and staring at the WordPress editor for hours now and I have absolutely nothing to say. Nothing that holds any kind of value, of course. I always have plenty to say otherwise. There has just been this weird fluctuation in my levels of productivity and there’s no way to tell when I’m going to come up with content that people are going to actually like and when I’m going to run out of creativity. It just feels like a lot is happening around me, at the moment, and sometimes, I just let it overwhelm me because it is obviously much bigger than me. I can’t fight it.
Denial isn’t going to make things any better for anybody. Being a brat about it and throwing a fit isn’t going to do anybody any good. And keeping it all inside without talking about it to anybody doesn’t seem like the right course of action either. I know there are probably about a million other things I could do to make myself feel better about it, but I think we all have these moments where we would much rather kick back and munch on popcorn than bother ourselves with things like productivity. It’s probably the most natural thing to feel as though the world has turned and left you right where you were, but we all know that’s not how it works.
There’s nobody who decides what the ‘right time’ for us is except for ourselves. I think that those of us who have been a part of the kind of society that never makes you feel as though we fit in, we’re more stubborn about making our own decisions and rules and sticking to them. What people say is of little to no consequence and that’s an amazing place to be once you’ve figured out that these rules that ‘dictate’ the way you’re ‘supposed to be’ don’t actually mean anything in the grand scheme of things. It’s like tasting what freedom feels like and then struggling to go back into a cage.
The point is that we look around ourselves and we see people just doing things with their lives and going places, and it is okay to feel a little left out because you probably wanted some of those things for yourself, as well, but it is never okay to force yourself into those things just because you feel left out. ‘I feel left out’ or ‘I feel like I’m missing out’ is never a good enough reason to force yourself into something that you aren’t ready for. And who decides whether you’re ready? Why, that would be you, of course! Nobody but you should have to decide that, and I know that putting your foot down is extremely difficult for some of you, but it’s not okay to be forced to do something that you don’t want. Whatever that may be.
I think this is a conversation that needs to be had at so many different stages in our lives, but if you ask me, I’d rather take my time to do something important than jump right into it just because everybody else was doing the same thing out there. Maybe I don’t get to experience a few things at the same time as some of my peers, and I’m obviously going to feel a little gutted about it because that’s just human, but it’s not a good enough reason for me to want that for myself right away, especially when I know that I probably have a few more steps to take. I know all of this sounds very vague right now but I’m obviously keeping it that way so that you can apply this to whatever situation fits best for you! Just, think about it, maybe?