I’ve been overworking myself for over two weeks at this point. I think it was pretty obvious, what with all the incredibly late and half-assed posts I’ve been uploading here lately. I promise, it is not without good reason.
For the longest time, I’d been looking for a job that would fit my expectations of work culture, and for the longest time, I’d been going absolutely nowhere. It was pretty stressful at one point because there is all this pressure that we put on ourselves, to make sure that we’re actively going somewhere with our lives, and I am surprised I didn’t crack under all the pressure I’ve been putting on myself lately.
I got the job, but that is just besides the point.
The point is that I did the exact thing I swore to myself that I wouldn’t do, and then ended up falling sick. I have totally let myself go in the last couple of weeks because I have been juggling multiple projects at once. It’s a little difficult, but I’m trying to hang in there until the project I’m working on right now is done. There is still a whole lot of work left.
The thing about the world we live in is that as much as we hate to fall prey to the whole hustle culture aspect of it all, we are forced to be a part of it anyway. There is very little we can do to avoid it on a larger scale.
But even amidst all of that, I feel the need to keep reminding everyone around me to focus more on themselves because no matter how much of yourself you put into your work, your work isn’t going to invest itself in you. It’s just the sad, sad truth. We could be giving up sleep to get our work done on time, but that is only going to harm us. Nobody is giving us brownie points for that.
And validation isn’t the whole point of working hard, but you have to admit that when your hard work goes unnoticed, it just feels like all the hours you put into it were for nothing. You still deserve to be recognized for your hard work.
I hope nobody’s losing sight of their goals, but I also sincerely hope that none of you is letting yourself go just because there has been too much on your plate, lately.
Put yourself first. It’s okay. Xx