Don’t Have To.

Well, I don’t know about you, but I’ve had a really bad couple of days and I don’t really know what to do about it except withdraw into myself and cut myself off from everyone I am close to because my problems are not their concern. I am torn between wanting to talk to my closest friends about it and not wanting to burden them with the things I’m going through. It just feels like everyone has become so distant, lately, and I don’t really know what I can do about except let myself drift further and further away from everyone I love until I fade out of their lives.

Everyone just keeps telling each other to hang in there because better things are coming. But from where I stand right now, it feels like this feeling of helplessness is here to stay. I wish more people understood that sometimes we just need a shoulder to cry on, for someone to just be a presence in our lives even if they don’t know how exactly they can help. I don’t think a lot of people understand how much better it is to have someone be a presence, especially during our worst times, than to go through the whole thing all alone.

Sometimes, you try the hardest you possibly can and things still go really, really wrong. You’re allowed to be sad about that. You’re allowed to tell yourself that you don’t always have to be positive about things when you have so much going on. It’s okay to just curl up in a corner and be sad about things for a while until you feel better about them enough to turn things around for yourself.

I’m not saying things won’t get better. They usually always do. But you’re allowed to be sad about it for a while. Holding yourself back from feeling the things you already do just does more damage than intended. It’s not like your feelings aren’t valid.

You don’t have to be so strong all the time. Xx