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I look for my muse in unfamiliar faces,
In unfamiliar places,
In voices dancing subtle octaves,
The more I chase,
Farther they go away;
And should there come a day
I lose my words to immeasurable misery,
I’ll look for my muse in places closer to me,
In all the places I’ve ever called home,
In everything I’ve kept buried.

I search for a voice I’ve never heard before,
Or perhaps I have, once upon a dream,
I sing songs never heard of,
Never known to man—
Some secrets I keep, selfishly,
And time is a fickle friend,
The clock keeps running out on me,
The closer I get to the voice that sings,
The quicker the sand falls for me,
I keep waking up the more  I dream.

I look for the answers to questions I don’t have,
Seeking comfort in the arms of the unknown—
What I know could hurt me,
So I drown,
And I drown until there aren’t any answers to seek,
Nothing but suffocating silence
As every voice I’ve ever known blurs out,
Until I wouldn’t know who I am,
I keep sinking to colder depths
Taking in the lasting peace.

I get drunk on the silence of the night,
Crickets and cicadas for company,
For at nights, I feel less lonely,
Less lonely than I am amidst crowds,
In the nights, there are just my thoughts and me,
My fears don’t seem as threatening
And I welcome them with open arms,
Friends who stay up with me
Until the cicadas go silent and the birds rise,
And my eyelids fall heavy.

I look for my muse in unfamiliar feelings,
In the most familiar of things,
In between pages read countless times,
My will crumbling like their spines,
In the same old familiar smell,
In the pressed flowers that leave stains and dents
The way my scars have left me,
I look for my muse in places closer to me,
In all the places I’ve ever called home,
In everything I’ve kept buried.

~© Shubhangi Srinivasan.


I just felt like writing a poem today, and this is the first thing that came to mind. So here you go. Happy reading!


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