The whole point of doing this activity where I journaled about self-discovery for 31 days was to understand myself better, and in a way, dig deeper to find out who I really am inside. The reason was simple. We know a lot about the people in our lives, or at least up to some extent. But we never really think about what our favourite books are, or what kind of activities bring peace in our lives. My idea was to help everybody to look at themselves in the same light that they looked at people they love.
First of all, I just want to get this out in the open, this whole idea of journaling about self-discovery for 31 days was reckless! It is the hardest thing I’ve ever had to do because it was happening alongside Inktober (art thread below) and I had to get myself to sit and think of a way to answer the 31 questions (today’s included) without making everything about myself.
31 days of hard-hitting questions really made me wonder who I am, who I have become over time and who I am going to be in the future. It made me realize that I am so much more than what I think— I am the music I listen to, the art I make, the books I read, the poems I write, what I watch, what I eat, what I do; I am all that and so much more, and I hardly even know myself. So how can I expect anybody else to?
All I’ve done this month is to focus on my art because I decided that spending my time doing anything else that doesn’t concern my art is just a waste of precious time that I would much rather invest in what I actually want to do in life: writing. I decided that it was time to focus on doing what I am here to do, no matter how long it takes me, away from any and all distractions that were holding me back.
Writing about myself every day for an entire month seemed like a shallow thing to do until it hit me that I’d be putting my personal thoughts on full blast to the entire world, on a much bigger scale than I usually do in my posts. Every single thing I’ve ever written here is just a snippet out of the hundreds of things that are going on in my head. So doing this activity about self-discovery wasn’t just about myself, it was about transparency.
It was about telling all of my readers that I am not perfect and that I have bad days when the last thing I want to do is to get up and write. I am not somebody who wants to throw unsolicited advice at your face. I am just a somebody like all of you, who is putting her innermost thoughts out here on a public platform, hoping that it helps one of you in some way or the other.
If anything, I suggest that everybody follows this activity of answering questions on self-discovery for an entire month. You never know what you’ll end up discovering about yourself. I keep saying that each one of us has an entire universe inside; we’ve barely scratched the surface.
Look inside. You’ll surprise yourself.
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