We all come across things that seem like they’d be the easiest things to do when you look at them from a distance, but up close, we all realize that there is so much more to them and that it is not that easy, after all! I’m trying my hand at something that I’ve never done before and I am quickly beginning to understand that this is going to be a lot harder than I imagined it would be. I thought I was getting better at this, but apparently, I have overestimated my abilities too much. But hey, it’s a good learning process, I guess. I’m just not particularly thrilled with the idea of having to spend around 3 hours staring at the same work-in-progress only to completely erase it and start over again.
I guess being a perfectionist with very little patience is a dangerous combination, but here I am! I will never tell myself that things ‘look easy’ ever again because I have realized that they never are. I’ve always known that things are a lot more difficult than they look on the surface, but knowing something and experiencing it firsthand are two very different things. Am I going to give up on whatever it is that I am trying to make? No. Am I going to keep trying? Yes. Can I complete this work-in-progress properly? Absolutely. It’s just going to take me a lot of time and effort, though, and that is okay.
Nothing good ever comes by easy and I think we all know that, deep down. But there’s always this foolishly human side of us that tries to convince the brain that ‘Oh, that doesn’t seem too difficult,’ just so that we can approach the work with our guard down. No, I don’t have a hidden lesson here or whatever. I’m just trying to tell you that I am a silly human being who stumbles around a lot and whines about things when they aren’t working out the way I want them to.
It’s a nice reminder sometimes. A reminder that I not always the person that people around me think I am. It feels incredible when people tell me that I am ‘talented’ or that they love my work, but I keep reminding myself that I am still learning. I am always learning. I have so much more left to learn. But we all grow at different paces. It’s important to remember that somebody else’s progress doesn’t mean that we have been ‘left behind’ or that we are somehow ‘lagging’; we’re just walking a different road, that’s all.
It’s a nice day for reminding yourself that you’re still growing, even if you don’t realize it. Sharks only grow big enough to fit the space they’re allowed to grow in. Plants wither and die if their roots aren’t given enough space to dig into the soil. If you see where I am going with this, then please stop trying to gatekeep your own growth. Give yourself the space to grow, even if it means that you’ll take longer than others. There’s nothing stopping you if you’ve truly set your heart on doing something.
Keep at it. You’ll get there!