I have spent yet another day working on commissioned paintings and I am exhausted to the bone. But, I am also very happy that I am keeping myself busy instead of wondering what else I could be doing to be more productive with my time. I haven’t checked my phone a whole lot today and my DMs are probably overflowing with unread messages (those from my best friends don’t count because I’ll always reply to them), but I find that I couldn’t really care less about anything except doing something that genuinely makes me happy.
I don’t want to jinx it, but I have been feeling more inspired every day and I hope it all doesn’t just vanish into thin air. I’ve also noticed how calmly I’ve been handling situations these days, if they’ve ever gone south, and I don’t know what’s different here but I like where I am right now. Sometimes, knowing that you yourself are in a good place, mentally, is all you need to get a peaceful sleep at night. I can’t tell you how exactly you can get there, but I can tell you that the reason I got here is probably that I started focusing on things that will actually help me grow, instead of those that would hold me back.
Tomorrow, I have more commissioned paintings to get to and I cannot wait to start working on them. It gives me an odd sense of purpose knowing that something I make is going to be cherished by people for a very long time. It gives me more reason to be an artist and to create more. As much as I love to create, it wouldn’t really mean much if my work was just collecting dust in some random pile of things I made, but never bothered to put out there into the world. I can’t put into words how grateful I am for the direction I find myself headed in.
It took me a while to get here, but nothing this good ever comes easy. It’s a slippery slope and the road uphill definitely isn’t a breeze, but I know that if you want something badly enough and if you’re stubborn about making it happen for yourself, there is very little that can stand in your way. The only thing you need to remember is too not give up in the face of failure. It doesn’t matter how many tries it takes you to get to where you truly want to be, because, in the end, it truly is all worth it.
The road ahead is long and I’m sure that there will be many, many times when we’re going to think about just what the hell it is that we’re doing with our lives, and that is okay. Every tantrum, every moment of weakness, every breakdown is fair and valid because we can’t always be strong. We have to let it in and fight to stay afloat. Sometimes, we need to ask for help because handling things all by ourselves isn’t exactly easy all the time, and that is okay too. There’s no shame in asking for help. You just need to remember that, as long as you know where exactly you want to be, no storm can stop you.
I hope you decide to put a lot more faith in yourself today than you did yesterday.
Hey guys! I hope you liked this post. Let me know in the comments below or share with someone you might want to show this to! You can also reach out to me and say ‘Hi’ on Twitter and Instagram. I’ll look forward to hearing from you.