It’s yet another day, and the sun has almost set, and I have no idea how time went by today. For the last couple of days, I have been stuck in a routine: Mandarin lessons, work, a little bit of blogging, and then back to work, go to sleep, wake up, repeat all over again. I am approaching my deadline for the commission that I have been working on for so long, and I have lost all track of time. The thing I’m working on right now is pretty much the only thing that is keeping me going these days and I am not complaining at all because this is a good thing. But also, I have no idea where this whole year went; it’s like some sort of a time warp or something, I don’t even remember the right word for it, if I’m being honest.
One thing I hate the most in the world is plain, old, boring routine, and it’s funny how I’m stuck in a routine right now. It’s a little hilarious, a little ironic. But mostly just… exhausting? I wouldn’t know.
The reason I’m actually trying to pick up some skills while I am still stuck at home is because a new skill, as productive as it can be, is also a little bit of a break from the routine that I have been thrown into. I’m sure that a lot of you must relate to this because we’re all pretty much going through the same thing. It’s not something cool, it’s not something I can tell you to just ‘hang in there and get it over with‘ because that is just not the way it works.
Because, whether you want to believe it or not, everyone I know is going through some form of existential crisis and it all stems either from this boring routine or from the uncertainty of when we’re going to get through this and if we’re going to get through this. Not exactly very sunshine-y of me, now, is it? I apologize if this is all too doom-and-gloom for you, but unlike all of my usual posts, I honestly don’t know where I am going with this. I just felt like I needed to get this out of my system or something like that.
Just last night, I was playing a game and I didn’t realize how long I had been playing it for until I checked my phone later. They say that time flies by very quickly when you keep yourself occupied with things, or when you’re doing something very interesting, and I believe that was the case last night. But let’s be real: our lives aren’t always the most interesting. We all have our share of good and bad days. Some days feel like they’re never going to end, and some days, you feel like there wasn’t enough time. See what I mean? Time, as a concept, feels so weird to me for this very reason!
But the most important thing right now is that I am still doing everything I love, even if the routine is a little annoying now. I can’t really complain about it because I’m enjoying the fact that I get to actually do what I am so passionate about. Because at the end of the day, no matter how much you sort things out for yourself, it’s not going to matter if you’re not passionate about the things you do with the time you have been given. I’d say ‘choose wisely‘, but you know, we learn the most by making all the wrong choices first. Learning only comes after that.
So, if you’re like me right now, wondering what to do with your time, I say you do a whole trial-and-error to find out what you actually like to do the most. Who knows what you might end up doing with the time you have been given? Even better, who knows what you’re going to end up learning!
All we have right now is time, anyway!
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