Songs of yearning and heartache fill the air
As I write yet another one that mourns you,
Walking the path of ever-elusive healing,
A road I wonder if you’ve walked, too.
Heart about to give out and a spirit crumbling,
Holding onto dear life, holding on until the end,
Gossamer threads of hope, delicate, radiant,
Faint, but just enough to go on a little more.
Flickering out and then back to life so bleak,
Doused out by exhaustion, a burning fire,
And when the morning comes, we’re all in a daze
From all the nights gone by, and then it’s sunrise,
Even the brightest stars must fall asleep;
For your time is yet to come, my dear one,
So hold on to all that rushed into your arms,
And let go of all that chose to leave.
Wide eyes, glistening with the unshed tears,
A smile that I forced myself to wear for years,
I fell apart once then, but I’m stronger now,
Lost my way for a while, but I’ll figure it out.
Walking two different paths, but I wish you well,
Although you weren’t ever here to catch me when I fell,
And I wonder if our paths will ever cross again,
I hope I’ll have the courage to walk away.
Here I am, walking a whole new road,
Every hurdle, every bend, going where it goes,
So many hard goodbyes, and it never ends,
Looking for all the answers nobody ever knows.
Something beautiful, something so strong,
We bicker, say we’re done, then come around,
And all this while, we hang by the faintest of threads,
Who knows what roads we have left to be tread?
~© Shubhangi Srinivasan.
And it’s finally the last post for this incredibly mad year. I have no idea where it went, and I don’t want to know either. It’s just one of those things that I’ll try to block out of my memory, save for all the happy bits. I know things are not magically going to change, but here’s hoping that I can write a lot more and a lot better in the next year. I hope you all get the rest we all deserve after everything that we’ve all been put through. Here’s to hope, and here’s to not giving up! Happy new year, everyone!