I know that we’re all a little cautious because the last time we celebrated a new year, things went a little downhill. Things have been very weird, and it’s not all going to change overnight until we actually work for the kind of change we want, so I just wanted to remind you all that you’re still here and you’re still fighting. Which means that, somewhere, deep down, you want for things to get better and that’s all the spirit you need.
Somebody once told me that I would only be as happy as I allow myself to be. It didn’t make any sense, back then, but now that I think about it, although I’m still stumbling around, I still manage to find a little bit of happiness somewhere, somehow. I wouldn’t call it looking at the world through rose-tinted glasses, rather, it’s a reminder to myself that I have to keep pushing and I have to keep working for the things that I want for myself because nothing worthwhile ever comes by easily. In most cases, you have to put in a little bit of work and have a lot of faith for things to actually last. I guess it’s the same with happiness.
This year, I think we should all promise ourselves that we will put ourselves first when needed and not spend too much of ourselves over people who don’t deserve that. I think that we let a lot of us be consumed and it’s not exactly the healthiest thing we can do for ourselves. We deserve better and I hope that we treat ourselves better than we think we actually deserve. I also hope that we allow ourselves to feel more. I know that we get hurt because of that sometimes, but the whole point of letting ourselves feel is to live. Having a past where you were hurt and trying to move past it in the present are two things that can and should co-exist. I hope we allow ourselves to feel that.
Most importantly, I hope that we all forgive ourselves for the last year. Whatever it may be. You slipped up and gained weight? Forgive yourself for that. You let time go by and didn’t do anything productive? Big deal, you were trying to stay alive and safe. You didn’t learn anything new? Well, here’s a lesson for you: forgive yourself for lost time and let yourself move past it. You don’t have a goal for the upcoming year? Figure it out in your time and cut yourself some slack. You think you fell behind and lost out on the progress you made? You still took a bunch of lessons away from that, didn’t you? So, how does it count as ‘falling behind’, anyway?
You don’t have to listen to what I’m saying. Maybe I don’t understand half the things that you’ve been through. But what I do know is that it’s a new day, and even though things don’t magically reset themselves, we’re still going to make it out of this.
We just have to put a little bit of work into healing ourselves, though. Just a little TLC.
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